That's how it works with saying how you are feeling, or letting your temper get the better of you, you cannot unsay things or undo actions. It is like opening Pandora's box, the contents comes out, but putting the lid back on cannot remove the fact that it was opened and what has happened can never be undone. Not that I am a box full of the evils of the world or anything, but I do try really hard to keep a lid on my shit as much as possible, and sometimes that means that I will purposely ostracize myself from everyone.
This can be really confusing for people around be, because I can seem cold and removed. People aren't really used to that side of me, and it tends to make them think that I am not okay. But I am okay, I am actually managing my own shit when I do these things and it is best to just leave me be for a spell and like a decent cake, I will rise up eventually.
Over the years I have learnt one very important life lesson, and that is, that you can only control how you behave and react to situations, not how anyone else is going to behave. So it is most important that you have your own behaviour modification processes in check before you start checking anyone else. It is true that people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones and that there is no rewind button on your actions, so with that in mind, just like a hermit crab I will retreat and go within for a while and come out when the coast looks a little clearer.
Release Date: 1993
Running Time: 118 mins
Directed by Lasse Hallstrom and adapted from the novel of the same name by Peter Hedges, this American drama comes on strong with its depiction of a desperate and often depressing existence in the small rural town of Endora, Iowa. Leonardo DiCaprio was robbed of the Academy Award for Best Actor in a Supporting Role in 1994, his stirring and accurate portrayal of Arnie Grape was unforgettably powerful and definitely Oscar worthy.
Gilbert (Johnny Depp) is weighed down with responsibility. He cares for his overweight mother, his mentally impaired brother Arnie and is also juggling an affair with a local married woman. When Gilbert meets free spirited Becky (Juliette Lewis) his life begins to have meaning and he starts to shirk his responsibilities, much to the dismay of everyone else that relies on him.
This is unusual and amazing work, both in script and delivery. It is incredibly beautiful and also deeply touching, What's Eating Gilbert Grape rises well above most coming of age movies for it realistic and heart felt qualities, it's a must see movie.
FINAL SAY: I wanna be a good person.
4 Chili Peppers