Faced with all of the ugly bits of myself this week as I struggle to not behave like a right royal asshole. I feel frayed around the edges, too little butter spread over too many pieces of toast. That teamed with my crappy as coping mechanisms generally means that I become a raving bitch with the patience of strung out crack addict.
Yay, good times for those that have to be around me. The horrible thing is that not only do I behave badly, but I also feel so bad for allowing the ugly parts of me to show through. You see, when you've spent your entire life shoving down all aspects of your hurt and angry self to get on with life, then when you are faced with those parts it is so tough. It's like a failure of the self, a sharp and undeniably painful truth about yourself that not only do you despise, but you never want anyone else to know about.
It's weak and it's pathetic and it's just not good enough.
And it's hard work keeping up the status quo and continually stifling your feelings. But I do, and I guess we all do sometimes. Cover it all up with a joke, because you just don't want people to see the real person in there, a watered down and funnier version is always so much easier to deal with.
Easier on the self.....easier on everyone.
Yay, good times for those that have to be around me. The horrible thing is that not only do I behave badly, but I also feel so bad for allowing the ugly parts of me to show through. You see, when you've spent your entire life shoving down all aspects of your hurt and angry self to get on with life, then when you are faced with those parts it is so tough. It's like a failure of the self, a sharp and undeniably painful truth about yourself that not only do you despise, but you never want anyone else to know about.
It's weak and it's pathetic and it's just not good enough.
And it's hard work keeping up the status quo and continually stifling your feelings. But I do, and I guess we all do sometimes. Cover it all up with a joke, because you just don't want people to see the real person in there, a watered down and funnier version is always so much easier to deal with.
Easier on the self.....easier on everyone.
IRREVERSIBLE
Release Date: 2002
Rating: R 18+
Running Time: 97 mins
Every now and again I watch a movie that has a profoundly disturbing affect on me, Irreversible definitely falls into that category. Be warned, this film is not for the fainthearted at all, it is incredibly graphic and completely revolting. Director Gaspar Noe pushes his viewers to new heights when it comes to comfort levels, and all of his movies have left their mark on me, although this one left the most lasting impression.
Irreversible plays backwards, literally. You start at the end, even the credits roll at the beginning of the film. We watch the events of one traumatic evening in Paris unfold in reverse-chronological order; retelling the brutal rape and beating of the beautiful Alex and the actions of her revenge filled boyfriend Marcus; played by real life couple at that time, Monica Bellucci and Vincent Cassel.
The background noise in the first 30 minutes of this film runs with a hidden frequency of 28Hz which is almost inaudible. In humans it creates nausea and vertigo, which adds to the extremely unsettling effect of this movie. Three people actually fainted during its showing at the Cannes Film Festival in 2002, and it is still the most walked out of movie of all time.
Don't have a big dinner before you watch it, and don't expect an easy ride because this is really horrid stuff. Love it or hate it, you will never forget it.
FINAL SAY: Can't unsee that shit
4 Chili Peppers
Release Date: 2002
Rating: R 18+
Running Time: 97 mins
Every now and again I watch a movie that has a profoundly disturbing affect on me, Irreversible definitely falls into that category. Be warned, this film is not for the fainthearted at all, it is incredibly graphic and completely revolting. Director Gaspar Noe pushes his viewers to new heights when it comes to comfort levels, and all of his movies have left their mark on me, although this one left the most lasting impression.
Irreversible plays backwards, literally. You start at the end, even the credits roll at the beginning of the film. We watch the events of one traumatic evening in Paris unfold in reverse-chronological order; retelling the brutal rape and beating of the beautiful Alex and the actions of her revenge filled boyfriend Marcus; played by real life couple at that time, Monica Bellucci and Vincent Cassel.
The background noise in the first 30 minutes of this film runs with a hidden frequency of 28Hz which is almost inaudible. In humans it creates nausea and vertigo, which adds to the extremely unsettling effect of this movie. Three people actually fainted during its showing at the Cannes Film Festival in 2002, and it is still the most walked out of movie of all time.
Don't have a big dinner before you watch it, and don't expect an easy ride because this is really horrid stuff. Love it or hate it, you will never forget it.
FINAL SAY: Can't unsee that shit
4 Chili Peppers
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