As Zoe races around checking out potential rentals and making her new life plans come to fruition, I sit back with feelings of extreme anxiety and behave neurotically because the bottom line is....I just don't want her to go. I am not ready to let one of my chicks out of the nest just yet, but I have no choice in the matter - she's going to fly the nest, it's happening and I have to come to terms with it.
I understand that this is a natural life progression thing, you raise your kids, you arm them with self empowerment and then you send them go off to forge their own way in the world, but when the actual time rolls around that you have to say goodbye, you just feel like falling to pieces. How do you say goodbye to almost 19 years of hard work and effort? Who the hell is going to be there when things go wrong? Who is going to tell her what to do? How could she possibly manage without me?
This is one of the most gut wrenchingly difficult things that I have ever done. I knew it was going to be horrid, but this is just ridiculous, I feel so damn anxious, and she's not even a stupid girl! I know that she is more than capable of getting on with life without us, perhaps I am just not sure that I can handle life without her. Christ - what am I saying? Slap yourself Barb!
Great, I'm becoming one of those agonizing mothers that just can't cut the umbilical cord and let their kids go, I am becoming one of those "weirdo clingy mums." I never thought the day would come when I would move into the realms of the over-protective and insanely-anxious mother-zones, and I am not happy about that prospect. I also know that carrying on like a loony mother is not going to be of any help to Zoe whatsoever, so I have to pull my shit together and put on a brave face, because this isn't even about me, this is Zoe's time to shine and I do know that in the end it will all be alright.
This is just completely new and unfamiliar territory that I am walking into- I just need to sniff it out a bit more and piss on a few more fences before I get truly comfortable with it.
Have to stay true to my mantra, going off road, going with the flow....Just be zen you crazy bitch, just be zen!
I understand that this is a natural life progression thing, you raise your kids, you arm them with self empowerment and then you send them go off to forge their own way in the world, but when the actual time rolls around that you have to say goodbye, you just feel like falling to pieces. How do you say goodbye to almost 19 years of hard work and effort? Who the hell is going to be there when things go wrong? Who is going to tell her what to do? How could she possibly manage without me?
This is one of the most gut wrenchingly difficult things that I have ever done. I knew it was going to be horrid, but this is just ridiculous, I feel so damn anxious, and she's not even a stupid girl! I know that she is more than capable of getting on with life without us, perhaps I am just not sure that I can handle life without her. Christ - what am I saying? Slap yourself Barb!
Great, I'm becoming one of those agonizing mothers that just can't cut the umbilical cord and let their kids go, I am becoming one of those "weirdo clingy mums." I never thought the day would come when I would move into the realms of the over-protective and insanely-anxious mother-zones, and I am not happy about that prospect. I also know that carrying on like a loony mother is not going to be of any help to Zoe whatsoever, so I have to pull my shit together and put on a brave face, because this isn't even about me, this is Zoe's time to shine and I do know that in the end it will all be alright.
This is just completely new and unfamiliar territory that I am walking into- I just need to sniff it out a bit more and piss on a few more fences before I get truly comfortable with it.
Have to stay true to my mantra, going off road, going with the flow....Just be zen you crazy bitch, just be zen!
YOUTH
Release Date: 2015
Rating: MA 15+
Running Time: 124 mins
A magnificent and mindfully meditative film from writer and director Paolo Sorrentino. This is most certainly not a film that is going to appeal to the masses, in fact, I did consider placing onto the art house list because there is nothing conventional or main stream about this film. Youth is designed for people who like to ponder even the most mundane of things, but it is all presented in the most tender of ways.
A retired composer and conductor (Michael Caine) and his long time, film director, friend (Harvey Keitel) take in some rest and relaxation at a wellness retreat in the Alps. Against the sprawling landscape and sumptuous surroundings, the two older men contemplate their lives, the lives of their children and the inspirations of the young, as they encounter all manner of guests at the retreat.
This film is truly a symphony of the most beautiful scenery, music and relationships, woven together masterfully to leave you overwhelmed with emotion and pondering for days after. Bravo Sorrentino, bravo indeed!
FINAL SAY: We are all extras. All we have is emotions.
5 Chili Peppers
Release Date: 2015
Rating: MA 15+
Running Time: 124 mins
A magnificent and mindfully meditative film from writer and director Paolo Sorrentino. This is most certainly not a film that is going to appeal to the masses, in fact, I did consider placing onto the art house list because there is nothing conventional or main stream about this film. Youth is designed for people who like to ponder even the most mundane of things, but it is all presented in the most tender of ways.
A retired composer and conductor (Michael Caine) and his long time, film director, friend (Harvey Keitel) take in some rest and relaxation at a wellness retreat in the Alps. Against the sprawling landscape and sumptuous surroundings, the two older men contemplate their lives, the lives of their children and the inspirations of the young, as they encounter all manner of guests at the retreat.
This film is truly a symphony of the most beautiful scenery, music and relationships, woven together masterfully to leave you overwhelmed with emotion and pondering for days after. Bravo Sorrentino, bravo indeed!
FINAL SAY: We are all extras. All we have is emotions.
5 Chili Peppers
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