I find that whenever something goes wrong with me physically I immediately thrust myself into this ridiculously harsh and deeply damning zone that forces me to take hard, cold stock of my physical make-up and my body flaws. It is not a friendly or self loving place to be, trust me, it's horrible.
Suddenly, I start to see every minor physical imperfection as a glaringly horrible obstacle that stands before my ability to thrive. I begin to rapidly hate the failings of my body as I scrutinize every inch of my aging physique and every major health choice that I have made in the past, desperately searching for a logical reason for my body to fail me. I eat well, I take care of myself, I have a fulfilling lifestyle, I get adequate rest, I exercise...why is this happening to me?
But the truth is, that sometimes bodies just fail. Even really healthy, sexy, slim and young ones fail, and it has nothing to do with years of abuse or sabotage, sometimes it is just the genetic hand that we are dealt that determines how things will play out and there is little or nothing that we can do about it.
As you get older, you do start to notice that things on your body don't...how can I put this? Operate as well as they used to. Things start to head south rapidly and you find that you have new aches and pains that you never used to have. Weird ones, ones that just appear like unwanted hair in the wrong places or liver spots on the backs of your hands, but more annoying and sometimes more alarming than that. I personally find these annoying new arrivals extremely hard to analyse, because it is so damn difficult to decide if I should worry about them and consider any of them serious, or if I should just ignore them as normal signs of aging. No-one tells you, so you don't know for sure. And at my age, you still feel way too young to have any serious health complications so you generally dismiss all of the unwelcomed weird stuff as nothing, but this may not always be the wisest thing to do.
Ignoring any health complications, no matter how small they may seem, is definitely not a smart thing to do. And having those honest and scrutinizing assessments with yourself, although uncomfortable, are also at times completely necessary. I wish that I was bulletproof, but I am not, I am human, which sometimes makes me fallible and fragile and susceptible to illness and disease. And as much as I really don't like going to see the GP, I think that a professionals opinion may be important for me right now.
There really is nothing like a health scare to boot your thinking back to those things that you hold in the highest esteem in your life, and how much you would hate to jeopardise your chances of making the most of your time. It is unfortunate that we as humans aren't made a little more resilient than we are, but perhaps it is our fragility that make us all the more precious and special, and also so utterly worth fighting to preserve.
Release Date: 2000
Rating: R 18+
Running Time: 114 mins
Long before The Hunger Games were even heard of, kids were being pitted against each other for blood sports in Battle Royale. A Japanese action thriller based on the novel by Koushun Takami and directed by Kinji Fukasaku, Battle Royale aroused both domestic and international controversy due to it's contents and theme, which was viewed by members of the Japanese parliament as 'crude and tasteless.'
A group of Japanese middle school students are taken out on a field trip, only to be gassed, fitted with electronic collars and sent to briefing room on a remote island. They soon discover that they have been selected to participate in the annual Battle Royale under the BR Act, which means that they have three days to kill each other until only one winner remains. The collars serve to kill uncooperative students or those that stumble into the 'danger' zones. With only a ration pack and a randomly chosen weapon, that can range from a firearm to a saucepan lid, the confused fifteen year old students begin their forced slaying of each other.
In spite of all of the controversy surrounding the film, it has been highly acclaimed by critics in the Western World, with comparisons being made to Lord of the Flies and A Clockwork Orange. Love it or hate it, Battle Royale is a provocative masterpiece of mayhem and is definitely worthy of at least one viewing in everyone's lifetime.
FINAL SAY: Life is a game. So fight for survival and see if you're worth it.
3.5 Chilli Peppers