The staff retreat turned out to be a lovely and cathartic experience, loads of time to reflect and meditate, I actually found the entire thing quite zen and appreciated the opportunity to escape the daily grind. I have been noticing that I am on a bit of spiritual retreat in general at the moment. I find that I become quite easily overwhelmed in social situations lately, and have been suffering from a type of syndrome that I like to call "fish out of water."
This does happen to me from time to time, I feel the need to be alone and find being around people virtually intolerable. This can come off badly, so it is always best for me to just retreat and seek some alone time. When I am in these types of modes, I find myself extremely intolerant to the plight of others, their complaints appear whiny and mostly self indulgent to me, so I can be curt and extremely insensitive without meaning to be. I also find that small talk has the effect of nails on a chalkboard when I get like this and I generally find myself tuning out and seeking the nearest exit. In short, I am not good to be around, and I am old enough to recognize the need for retreat in my own self now, so I know that there is no point in making myself do anything social until the moment passes.
Perhaps it is the plight of all introverts to feel like this, but to be honest I find these feelings of anti-socialism perplexing and uncomfortable myself, is it normal to not to want to be around anyone for long periods? A week with no phone, no visitors and no human interaction with anyone apart from my immediate family sounds like heaven to me right now, is it wrong to feel this way? I do feel guilty when I get in one of these moods, but there is honestly nothing that I can do to stop it from happening, it just comes out of nowhere and if I don't heed the call to retreat I continue to get worse and worse and I just become a complete and utter bitch. Perhaps it has nothing to do with being an introvert and everything to do with being slightly unhinged, but it is what it is, and I can do nothing about it but surrender, own it and retreat to a quiet corner until I come good again... which I know I will do....eventually.
This does happen to me from time to time, I feel the need to be alone and find being around people virtually intolerable. This can come off badly, so it is always best for me to just retreat and seek some alone time. When I am in these types of modes, I find myself extremely intolerant to the plight of others, their complaints appear whiny and mostly self indulgent to me, so I can be curt and extremely insensitive without meaning to be. I also find that small talk has the effect of nails on a chalkboard when I get like this and I generally find myself tuning out and seeking the nearest exit. In short, I am not good to be around, and I am old enough to recognize the need for retreat in my own self now, so I know that there is no point in making myself do anything social until the moment passes.
Perhaps it is the plight of all introverts to feel like this, but to be honest I find these feelings of anti-socialism perplexing and uncomfortable myself, is it normal to not to want to be around anyone for long periods? A week with no phone, no visitors and no human interaction with anyone apart from my immediate family sounds like heaven to me right now, is it wrong to feel this way? I do feel guilty when I get in one of these moods, but there is honestly nothing that I can do to stop it from happening, it just comes out of nowhere and if I don't heed the call to retreat I continue to get worse and worse and I just become a complete and utter bitch. Perhaps it has nothing to do with being an introvert and everything to do with being slightly unhinged, but it is what it is, and I can do nothing about it but surrender, own it and retreat to a quiet corner until I come good again... which I know I will do....eventually.
RUN LOLA RUN
Release Date: 1998
Rating: R 18+
Running Time: 80 mins
Written and directed by Tom Tykwer, this German thriller is a visually and conceptually impressive body of work. Run Lola Run won an enormous array of awards upon its release including the Sundance Film Festival World Movie Award, mostly due to its unique story line and interesting film-making qualities.
Lola (Franka Potente) receives a phone call from her boyfriend Manni, he has misplaced a bag carrying $100,000 dollars on a train that belongs to a gangster. Manni must recover the money by noon, which has been picked up by a homeless man, or else he will be killed. This only leaves Lola 20 short minutes to save her boyfriend.
The movie plays out like a choose your own adventure story, Lola relives her 20 minute ordeal three times, each time making different choices that lead her to different outcomes. This is clever and very cool film making, the movie darts around using different techniques including animation, black and white, slow and fast motion and amazing stills. The soundtrack is dynamic and for only 80 minutes running time, there is a lot packed in here, making it a tight and tense watch.
FINAL SAY: But in the end, isn't it always the same question? And always the same answer?
4 Chili Peppers
Release Date: 1998
Rating: R 18+
Running Time: 80 mins
Written and directed by Tom Tykwer, this German thriller is a visually and conceptually impressive body of work. Run Lola Run won an enormous array of awards upon its release including the Sundance Film Festival World Movie Award, mostly due to its unique story line and interesting film-making qualities.
Lola (Franka Potente) receives a phone call from her boyfriend Manni, he has misplaced a bag carrying $100,000 dollars on a train that belongs to a gangster. Manni must recover the money by noon, which has been picked up by a homeless man, or else he will be killed. This only leaves Lola 20 short minutes to save her boyfriend.
The movie plays out like a choose your own adventure story, Lola relives her 20 minute ordeal three times, each time making different choices that lead her to different outcomes. This is clever and very cool film making, the movie darts around using different techniques including animation, black and white, slow and fast motion and amazing stills. The soundtrack is dynamic and for only 80 minutes running time, there is a lot packed in here, making it a tight and tense watch.
FINAL SAY: But in the end, isn't it always the same question? And always the same answer?
4 Chili Peppers
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